GULP!

Still in the final exam period. 2 papers are done, the final 2 are coming. But I think I already lost my mojo. I've been doing a lot of thinking process both academically and    non-academically lately. The non-academically involves emotions and feelings that are affecting me bit by bit. I feel like going to an empty space with no one around and scream out loud. I used to do that once last year in Batu Feringghi. Scream my heart out in the middle of the beach at 3 in the morning. Crazy, yes I am. I feel the urge to go back home now. I need my room, the aircond, the rest, away from studying. Third semester is not a good semester for me. I feel like there's something missing in me. I need a vacation away from everybody, just me alone. Traveling perhaps. I need to find the piece of me that has lost. I really need it. Please, 2 more papers and I am free for 1 and half months. Dear Allah, please give me the strengths to overcome the obstacles you gave me. Like people said, Allah takkan bagi dugaan and ujian kalau dia tak sayang kita. Means that He loves me and He knows what's best for me. Just have to be patient and I am sure there's a reward for that. Insya-Allah, Amin :)

All Set

The exam notices have been going around. Everyone has been asking me about my preparations for the exams. Circling and dancing in Facebook, the alphabet E-X-A-M just won't leave me alone. But somehow right now I just don't feel tensed. Well, not just yet. Just wait till the exam day arrives and I can assure you I'll be the one who is going to freak out and have a panic attack.

It's not the time yet to enjoy and get loose. Not just I can't have fun, I can't even spare a second of THINKING of having the fun. Oh, how I hate this feelings ;(

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While I was out to a grocery store yesterday, I wore a flip flop. When I was about to go back, I felt a burning sensation on my left foot. I don't know what creature/bug bit me, it sure hurts so much. Now I have a 20 cent size bluish-purple bruise :'(

How Great is Your LOVE

Dedicate this to my Mom 

The whole world brightens at your smile

Like the spring day

Making me dream again

On the day where sunlight glitters

Clasping my fingers in yours

Walking while matching our feet

Walking in front of you

At times suddenly turning around

Looking at your face that stares at me

My eyes are dazzled

Listening to the sound of spring

Walking along the path with blooming flowers

If summer comes and it rains

Walk on only looking at the rainbow

Even when the autumn passes and winter comes

We will walk on together

Feeling the warmth coming from your hands

How great is your love

I had been waiting for the love

Love like the sky, to come to me

On the day where star lights are shinning

Walking while matching the melody of singing birds

Like the secrets of the season

Repeating, come and go

Feeling the love that never changes

My eyes are dazzled

Listening to the sound of spring

Walking along the path with blooming flowers

If summer comes and it rains

Walk on only looking at the rainbow

Even when the autumn passes and winter comes

We will walk on together

Feeling the warmth coming from your hands

How great is your love

You give shinning lights to me

Me who is exhausted in this world

At the end of this narrow path where we walk together

Even if winter comes again

If your hands are holding mine

The world will be spring days to me

How great is your love

How great is your love

p/s: it will be great if my mama can read this. Spend 3 hours to wrote this

Mama & Papa

Baru balik Batu Pahat sehari but I already miss my mom and my dad. Don't know why, aritu ak balik for deepavali holiday ak rse sayang sgt2 kt diorg. Miss them damn much. Both of them umur dh separuh abad. Both dh tua and segala penyakit dtg umur cmni. I pray to Allah everyday so that HE will extend their life until diorg sempat g Haji. The only moment yg ak xleh imagine ak akan hadapi is the death of my parents. From form1 till form5, g PLKN 3 bulan, Uitm 1 tahun xpenah ak rse cmni. Xthula npe pagi nie ak asyik ingat kt diorg. May Allah bless both of them.